Get to know me.

This is a rather odd blog, seeing as I don't usually like to talk about myself, let alone 'deep' stuff about me.

Regardless of this fact, I have encountered an increasing intolerance against me and my views, and I fear that this is because of my aforementioned dislike.

For this reason, I give you a glimpse into my mind;
(I wrote this as an essay and therefor will be a rather different read than my other blogs, just a heads up)


I am a cynical, misanthropic, hedonistic and esoteric antitheist, torn by nihilism. Although my relatively elevated level of intelligence ought to be preventing me from this, I can't help feeling non-superior to virtually anyone I meet. I live my life in escapism and all I care about are the pleasures life has to offer me. Ironically, apathy and indifference rule my life and I'm a slave to my own mind. I am slightly neurotic, over-analyzing and quite paranoid individual, forever in pursuit of perfectionism, thus consequently continuously living in discontent. I'm in a perpetual state of nervous agitation, indecisive and insecure, quickly getting bored of nearly anything. Generally, I'm a serious and all-or-nothing kinda guy, anything but social or a people-person. I'm introspective, introverted and reasonably vain, but always in vane. Furthermore, I'm very prudent, demanding sincerity above everything. I can either be spontaneous and altruistic or introverted and depressed, depending on the way I wake up. However, I'd rather be a dysphoric omniscient, than blissfully ignorant.

I value the lives of animals over the lives of human beings, except for that of insects. I think principle heroes are a rarity these days, don't let them stand alone. Just like everyone else, I have been placed upon this planet without request, fighting for my own personal survival. Since I'm not suffering from any type of god-complex, I do not feel responsible for other people's lives, hence I do not consider egocentrism to be immoral or unethical in any single way. I decline to participate in this seemingly universal desperate attempt of social acceptance through achievement and competence. I utterly despise and loath everything that has even remotely anything to do with money, career, capitalism, economics, politics, cars, neckties, nationalism and the established Abrahamic religions. Music in general prevents me from talking to myself and hurting others. I consider fashion and trends media-induced mass-psychoses and disapprove of idolizing individuals. For that exact same reason I rarely watch television, persuasive manipulative crap. I do not feel responsible for the actions of my predecessors, nor will I ever take pride in any of it. The only type of people towards whom I cherish fascist beliefs if any, are spineless populists and opportunists completely changing personality or opinion according to the crowd or circumstance.

I'm excessively annoyed by the ever-growing incessant ignorance of the sorry excuse for human beings surrounding me, following the current day in day out like a flock of short-sighted and shallow-minded zombie sheep living their pathetically superficial and insignificant simple little lives without ever feeling the need to question a single fucking thing. I reject self-obliged etiquettes and family-ties, probably due to my questionable childhood. Besides that, it's mainly the instrument of control "money" that ruined practically every single aspect of my life, simply because I don't believe in its conceptual value and won't let it dictate my life. I refuse to let prosperity guide me, drown in wealth and luxury and do not feel inferior to people that possess more money than I do, merely because they originated from a wealthy parentage or just happened to make fortunate decisions based on selfishness and avarice. Therefore, in my humble point of view, class differences among social standards or public transportation are in defiance of humanity. I'm interested in roughly everything that has anything to do with existence and the end of it, cosmology, astronomy, meteorology, palaeontology, archaeology, ancient history, mythology, mysticism, psychology, philosophy, theology (to a certain extent), semantics, sociology, biology, chemistry, (quantum) physics, science and science fiction. I like to come of as a wise man, yet I never take my own advise.

There's no such thing as normal, there's only average, which I desperately try not to be. I don't acknowledge any laws, not even gravity. I love to skateboard ever since I was eleven years old, a widely regarded childish hobby that I can't seem to get rid of. Once upon a time I played drums but was too pessimistic to continue. Apart from music I'm a real movie buff. I'm all but prolific and always choose quality over quantity. I take what I can whenever it comes my way, but seldom put any effort in what I yearn for. "The distance between insanity and genius is measured only by success." I sincerely believe jealousy and ambition are the demise of what's left of our moral and intellectual humanity, yet cannot deny my jealous predispositions. The decay and disintegration of this culture is astonishingly amusing if you're emotionally detached from it. What may sound to some like anger, is really nothing more than sympathetic contempt. I view my species with a combination of wonder and pity and I root for its destruction. My hate might be grand, but never senseless. I'm an incredibly complicated and stubborn person whose life is governed strictly by his heart, intuition and principles. For I'm resistant to common interpretation and beyond mortal comprehension. Most people are afraid of me, because man hates what it fears and fears what it can not understand. Who am I to judge you? Who are you to question my judgement! Consider me your social counterweight, or most convenient eligible fraternizing common enemy.
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If you have actually made it this far then I applaud you, for you have done what most men would not.
And just by doing so, you have restored what ever is left of my hope in humanity, one that is ever fleeting yet being flaunted in my face.

Until next time,

Mickey.

Morality.

I've actually wanted to write about something else, but I guess this will do for now.
Lack of motivation are a kick in the nuts with these kind of things, so I've noticed.

Everyone has different views on morality. It varies from country to country, continent to continent and religion to religion. What I've always wondered though is; why did it came to be in the first place? Some would argue that morality is the sole thing that divides us from our best friend, the ape. But I beg to differ. Morality has sprung forth at the same time when control, and thus power did.

How can those things be related, you ask? Morality is just a collection of 'rules' on how to live your life, when control is something completely different. Well, it isn't. Morality is in a sense, gaining control over your own life. Without morality people's lives would be chaos. And we all know how awful chaos can be. So one answer to the question as to why it came to be is taking control of your life. Other answers are, of course possible. But for the sake of me not getting confused and ending up writing complete bullshit, I'll stick with this one answer for now. Now the reason why I beg to differ that morality is the thing that divides us from what we have now and flinging shit towards each other and eating lice off of each others backs is that morality can be replaced. Sure, it's really hard to imagine. How the hell can you replace morality when it's something that has been us since the dawn of time? Well the answer is simple. As with everything that we do in life, from buying groceries to going to the pub with our friends, it's all a part of routine. You get so used to something that you don't really think about it anymore, you just do it.

Morality, has undergone the same treatment. We could've just as easily figured out something completely different from it, and if it worked just as well as morality did into giving one control of his/her own life, we would live by that principle now. That's how easily replaceable it is. It's like drugs, really. If you would like to compare it to that. All you'd have to do is take away our 'drug' morality, let us wallow in our own piss and shit for a while because we have no idea how to live without it, and soon enough if we get offered something that we could use as morality, we'd be on it faster than ever.

Keeping the above in consideration, I know that without any sort of morality you are not able to live a normal life in today's society, so that's why I still have keep some of it to heart. But I wish there was no reason for me to do so.

But having that out of the way, lets continue with the notion that there is no morality anymore, and there has never been a 'thing' to replace it. How would our lives look like then? You know, without all the wallowing in piss and shit, once we actually come to the conclusion that we don't need it to survive. I for one am pretty curious to find that out. The reason being is that the human race wouldn't be held back by things as the 'battle' of what is right and wrong. There is no right or wrong, so why waste time? Even though I said that without morality there would be chaos,  I also believe that without the mental chains of morality our 'inner self' gets free reign. No more right or wrong, no more social codes of conduct. Just you and that gut feeling you get when you feel something. That, in my opinion, is how you're supposed to live.

So how would such a thing work in todays society? Well, it wouldn't. We're already so entwined with morality through religion and routine that only the thought of a moral-less life makes our spine shiver in fear. I say, nuke everything, lets start over and do it right this time. (pun intended)

Well, time to start this.

So seeing as this is my first blog, please allow me to fail epically so that I may get even better at all of this.
Everything is a learning process, after all.

I wanted to get straight to the point with what messege I want to deliver with this blog, so there's no confusion about it and so that people know what kind of stuff I'll be writing about. That being said; lets start.

Have you ever just sat and observed people? Just for the hell of it, sit in a crowded place and just.. look at people. I've found myself doing this quite a bit. Not for any creepy reasons, but just to understand people. Being a misanthropist with a very strange and diverse worldview, I often distance myself from people and reality. My link back to reality seems to be just observing people. I see them talking on their phones, walking with friends, closing business deals and everything else you can imagine. Yet I always have to ask myself.. are these people aware? Aware of their existance.

People often disregard the simple fact that it's a damn cosmic miracle that we're here. Out of all the planets that have tried and failed to sustain life, this little rock somewhere in the universe has succeeded in just that. And that out of just a simple one celled organism, after billions of years, that us humans get to exist. Then there is the fact that.. out of the millions of sperm cells your dad eventually put into your mom after a drunken night at the bar, that it's YOU specicifically that is born.. mathmatically it's just a freaking wonder. But anyway, that derailment aside.. I can't help but wonder if  people are AWARE of that.. Who of you can honestly say to me that they have? I doubt there will be a lot of people. And to me that's SUCH a shame. If any of those people took the time to think about things.. who knows where we would be right now.

Thinking about things, unlocks knowlege, yet I see so many people just strolling through life not giving a damn about anything.
Now don't get me wrong, I don't care about a lot of things. Some people call it sadistic that I have completly no feelings when a million people die in some disaster.. but that's just me thinking; I shouldn't burden myself with other people's sufferings, because when the time comes that I myself am suffering, it will all be much harder to deal with. You know, you mentally bury yourself in rocks and eventually the load becomes so heavy that there's no way back.

But people should think about things that actually MATTER. Not which celeberty has the most fans, what Lady Gaga's newest song is or which shoes you should buy next. Hell I think if even half of the people on the planet did that I wouldn't be writing this blog because there would be no reason for me to be misanthropic at all then. But seeing as events are as they are, I can't help but notice these things. I want the human species to exist on further, so that we can at least say there was one species that existed that trumped all expecations and actually made it out alive. But we're just so self destructive that I don't know if I'll ever be able to say such things. All I have left in my is utter discontempt about the human as a species.

Which does bring me to another point which I'll most likely be spending more time on in the future, but it's kind of something that I wanted to get off my chest immediatly.. I don't know WHY I want us to succeed, because I think that in the end nothing really matters. You live, you die, you give back yourself to the earth that you have profited from; Game over. So what's the point in doing anything at all if it's all going to be in vein anyways? Well I don't really have an answer for you. That's something I  hope to accomplish writing this blog and sharing it with anyone who reads this. My main mission is the exchange ideas, and eventually
come up with answers that is satisfying to me, and of course, to my readers.

I hope that this is at least somewhat interesting to people, and if it isn't yet.. Don't just click away and forget about this.I'll get better at blogging and things will come out of my mind better.

I think I'll keep it to this for now, I'm just so full of ideas so I have to see which ones I want to go through with. As I said in the beginning; Everything is a learning process, and I hope you guys will stick with me through all of it.

Yeah so I'll start blogging when the HTML and the pictures for my blog are all finished.
Until then you can just go fap in the corner and wait until I'm done.