Well, time to start this.

So seeing as this is my first blog, please allow me to fail epically so that I may get even better at all of this.
Everything is a learning process, after all.

I wanted to get straight to the point with what messege I want to deliver with this blog, so there's no confusion about it and so that people know what kind of stuff I'll be writing about. That being said; lets start.

Have you ever just sat and observed people? Just for the hell of it, sit in a crowded place and just.. look at people. I've found myself doing this quite a bit. Not for any creepy reasons, but just to understand people. Being a misanthropist with a very strange and diverse worldview, I often distance myself from people and reality. My link back to reality seems to be just observing people. I see them talking on their phones, walking with friends, closing business deals and everything else you can imagine. Yet I always have to ask myself.. are these people aware? Aware of their existance.

People often disregard the simple fact that it's a damn cosmic miracle that we're here. Out of all the planets that have tried and failed to sustain life, this little rock somewhere in the universe has succeeded in just that. And that out of just a simple one celled organism, after billions of years, that us humans get to exist. Then there is the fact that.. out of the millions of sperm cells your dad eventually put into your mom after a drunken night at the bar, that it's YOU specicifically that is born.. mathmatically it's just a freaking wonder. But anyway, that derailment aside.. I can't help but wonder if  people are AWARE of that.. Who of you can honestly say to me that they have? I doubt there will be a lot of people. And to me that's SUCH a shame. If any of those people took the time to think about things.. who knows where we would be right now.

Thinking about things, unlocks knowlege, yet I see so many people just strolling through life not giving a damn about anything.
Now don't get me wrong, I don't care about a lot of things. Some people call it sadistic that I have completly no feelings when a million people die in some disaster.. but that's just me thinking; I shouldn't burden myself with other people's sufferings, because when the time comes that I myself am suffering, it will all be much harder to deal with. You know, you mentally bury yourself in rocks and eventually the load becomes so heavy that there's no way back.

But people should think about things that actually MATTER. Not which celeberty has the most fans, what Lady Gaga's newest song is or which shoes you should buy next. Hell I think if even half of the people on the planet did that I wouldn't be writing this blog because there would be no reason for me to be misanthropic at all then. But seeing as events are as they are, I can't help but notice these things. I want the human species to exist on further, so that we can at least say there was one species that existed that trumped all expecations and actually made it out alive. But we're just so self destructive that I don't know if I'll ever be able to say such things. All I have left in my is utter discontempt about the human as a species.

Which does bring me to another point which I'll most likely be spending more time on in the future, but it's kind of something that I wanted to get off my chest immediatly.. I don't know WHY I want us to succeed, because I think that in the end nothing really matters. You live, you die, you give back yourself to the earth that you have profited from; Game over. So what's the point in doing anything at all if it's all going to be in vein anyways? Well I don't really have an answer for you. That's something I  hope to accomplish writing this blog and sharing it with anyone who reads this. My main mission is the exchange ideas, and eventually
come up with answers that is satisfying to me, and of course, to my readers.

I hope that this is at least somewhat interesting to people, and if it isn't yet.. Don't just click away and forget about this.I'll get better at blogging and things will come out of my mind better.

I think I'll keep it to this for now, I'm just so full of ideas so I have to see which ones I want to go through with. As I said in the beginning; Everything is a learning process, and I hope you guys will stick with me through all of it.