This is a rather odd blog, seeing as I don't usually like to talk about myself, let alone 'deep' stuff about me.
Regardless of this fact, I have encountered an increasing intolerance against me and my views, and I fear that this is because of my aforementioned dislike.
For this reason, I give you a glimpse into my mind;
(I wrote this as an essay and therefor will be a rather different read than my other blogs, just a heads up)
I am a cynical, misanthropic, hedonistic and esoteric antitheist, torn by nihilism. Although my relatively elevated level of intelligence ought to be preventing me from this, I can't help feeling non-superior to virtually anyone I meet. I live my life in escapism and all I care about are the pleasures life has to offer me. Ironically, apathy and indifference rule my life and I'm a slave to my own mind. I am slightly neurotic, over-analyzing and quite paranoid individual, forever in pursuit of perfectionism, thus consequently continuously living in discontent. I'm in a perpetual state of nervous agitation, indecisive and insecure, quickly getting bored of nearly anything. Generally, I'm a serious and all-or-nothing kinda guy, anything but social or a people-person. I'm introspective, introverted and reasonably vain, but always in vane. Furthermore, I'm very prudent, demanding sincerity above everything. I can either be spontaneous and altruistic or introverted and depressed, depending on the way I wake up. However, I'd rather be a dysphoric omniscient, than blissfully ignorant.
I value the lives of animals over the lives of human beings, except for that of insects. I think principle heroes are a rarity these days, don't let them stand alone. Just like everyone else, I have been placed upon this planet without request, fighting for my own personal survival. Since I'm not suffering from any type of god-complex, I do not feel responsible for other people's lives, hence I do not consider egocentrism to be immoral or unethical in any single way. I decline to participate in this seemingly universal desperate attempt of social acceptance through achievement and competence. I utterly despise and loath everything that has even remotely anything to do with money, career, capitalism, economics, politics, cars, neckties, nationalism and the established Abrahamic religions. Music in general prevents me from talking to myself and hurting others. I consider fashion and trends media-induced mass-psychoses and disapprove of idolizing individuals. For that exact same reason I rarely watch television, persuasive manipulative crap. I do not feel responsible for the actions of my predecessors, nor will I ever take pride in any of it. The only type of people towards whom I cherish fascist beliefs if any, are spineless populists and opportunists completely changing personality or opinion according to the crowd or circumstance.
I'm excessively annoyed by the ever-growing incessant ignorance of the sorry excuse for human beings surrounding me, following the current day in day out like a flock of short-sighted and shallow-minded zombie sheep living their pathetically superficial and insignificant simple little lives without ever feeling the need to question a single fucking thing. I reject self-obliged etiquettes and family-ties, probably due to my questionable childhood. Besides that, it's mainly the instrument of control "money" that ruined practically every single aspect of my life, simply because I don't believe in its conceptual value and won't let it dictate my life. I refuse to let prosperity guide me, drown in wealth and luxury and do not feel inferior to people that possess more money than I do, merely because they originated from a wealthy parentage or just happened to make fortunate decisions based on selfishness and avarice. Therefore, in my humble point of view, class differences among social standards or public transportation are in defiance of humanity. I'm interested in roughly everything that has anything to do with existence and the end of it, cosmology, astronomy, meteorology, palaeontology, archaeology, ancient history, mythology, mysticism, psychology, philosophy, theology (to a certain extent), semantics, sociology, biology, chemistry, (quantum) physics, science and science fiction. I like to come of as a wise man, yet I never take my own advise.
There's no such thing as normal, there's only average, which I desperately try not to be. I don't acknowledge any laws, not even gravity. I love to skateboard ever since I was eleven years old, a widely regarded childish hobby that I can't seem to get rid of. Once upon a time I played drums but was too pessimistic to continue. Apart from music I'm a real movie buff. I'm all but prolific and always choose quality over quantity. I take what I can whenever it comes my way, but seldom put any effort in what I yearn for. "The distance between insanity and genius is measured only by success." I sincerely believe jealousy and ambition are the demise of what's left of our moral and intellectual humanity, yet cannot deny my jealous predispositions. The decay and disintegration of this culture is astonishingly amusing if you're emotionally detached from it. What may sound to some like anger, is really nothing more than sympathetic contempt. I view my species with a combination of wonder and pity and I root for its destruction. My hate might be grand, but never senseless. I'm an incredibly complicated and stubborn person whose life is governed strictly by his heart, intuition and principles. For I'm resistant to common interpretation and beyond mortal comprehension. Most people are afraid of me, because man hates what it fears and fears what it can not understand. Who am I to judge you? Who are you to question my judgement! Consider me your social counterweight, or most convenient eligible fraternizing common enemy.
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If you have actually made it this far then I applaud you, for you have done what most men would not.
And just by doing so, you have restored what ever is left of my hope in humanity, one that is ever fleeting yet being flaunted in my face.
Until next time,
Mickey.
Regardless of this fact, I have encountered an increasing intolerance against me and my views, and I fear that this is because of my aforementioned dislike.
For this reason, I give you a glimpse into my mind;
(I wrote this as an essay and therefor will be a rather different read than my other blogs, just a heads up)
I am a cynical, misanthropic, hedonistic and esoteric antitheist, torn by nihilism. Although my relatively elevated level of intelligence ought to be preventing me from this, I can't help feeling non-superior to virtually anyone I meet. I live my life in escapism and all I care about are the pleasures life has to offer me. Ironically, apathy and indifference rule my life and I'm a slave to my own mind. I am slightly neurotic, over-analyzing and quite paranoid individual, forever in pursuit of perfectionism, thus consequently continuously living in discontent. I'm in a perpetual state of nervous agitation, indecisive and insecure, quickly getting bored of nearly anything. Generally, I'm a serious and all-or-nothing kinda guy, anything but social or a people-person. I'm introspective, introverted and reasonably vain, but always in vane. Furthermore, I'm very prudent, demanding sincerity above everything. I can either be spontaneous and altruistic or introverted and depressed, depending on the way I wake up. However, I'd rather be a dysphoric omniscient, than blissfully ignorant.
I value the lives of animals over the lives of human beings, except for that of insects. I think principle heroes are a rarity these days, don't let them stand alone. Just like everyone else, I have been placed upon this planet without request, fighting for my own personal survival. Since I'm not suffering from any type of god-complex, I do not feel responsible for other people's lives, hence I do not consider egocentrism to be immoral or unethical in any single way. I decline to participate in this seemingly universal desperate attempt of social acceptance through achievement and competence. I utterly despise and loath everything that has even remotely anything to do with money, career, capitalism, economics, politics, cars, neckties, nationalism and the established Abrahamic religions. Music in general prevents me from talking to myself and hurting others. I consider fashion and trends media-induced mass-psychoses and disapprove of idolizing individuals. For that exact same reason I rarely watch television, persuasive manipulative crap. I do not feel responsible for the actions of my predecessors, nor will I ever take pride in any of it. The only type of people towards whom I cherish fascist beliefs if any, are spineless populists and opportunists completely changing personality or opinion according to the crowd or circumstance.
I'm excessively annoyed by the ever-growing incessant ignorance of the sorry excuse for human beings surrounding me, following the current day in day out like a flock of short-sighted and shallow-minded zombie sheep living their pathetically superficial and insignificant simple little lives without ever feeling the need to question a single fucking thing. I reject self-obliged etiquettes and family-ties, probably due to my questionable childhood. Besides that, it's mainly the instrument of control "money" that ruined practically every single aspect of my life, simply because I don't believe in its conceptual value and won't let it dictate my life. I refuse to let prosperity guide me, drown in wealth and luxury and do not feel inferior to people that possess more money than I do, merely because they originated from a wealthy parentage or just happened to make fortunate decisions based on selfishness and avarice. Therefore, in my humble point of view, class differences among social standards or public transportation are in defiance of humanity. I'm interested in roughly everything that has anything to do with existence and the end of it, cosmology, astronomy, meteorology, palaeontology, archaeology, ancient history, mythology, mysticism, psychology, philosophy, theology (to a certain extent), semantics, sociology, biology, chemistry, (quantum) physics, science and science fiction. I like to come of as a wise man, yet I never take my own advise.
There's no such thing as normal, there's only average, which I desperately try not to be. I don't acknowledge any laws, not even gravity. I love to skateboard ever since I was eleven years old, a widely regarded childish hobby that I can't seem to get rid of. Once upon a time I played drums but was too pessimistic to continue. Apart from music I'm a real movie buff. I'm all but prolific and always choose quality over quantity. I take what I can whenever it comes my way, but seldom put any effort in what I yearn for. "The distance between insanity and genius is measured only by success." I sincerely believe jealousy and ambition are the demise of what's left of our moral and intellectual humanity, yet cannot deny my jealous predispositions. The decay and disintegration of this culture is astonishingly amusing if you're emotionally detached from it. What may sound to some like anger, is really nothing more than sympathetic contempt. I view my species with a combination of wonder and pity and I root for its destruction. My hate might be grand, but never senseless. I'm an incredibly complicated and stubborn person whose life is governed strictly by his heart, intuition and principles. For I'm resistant to common interpretation and beyond mortal comprehension. Most people are afraid of me, because man hates what it fears and fears what it can not understand. Who am I to judge you? Who are you to question my judgement! Consider me your social counterweight, or most convenient eligible fraternizing common enemy.
____
If you have actually made it this far then I applaud you, for you have done what most men would not.
And just by doing so, you have restored what ever is left of my hope in humanity, one that is ever fleeting yet being flaunted in my face.
Until next time,
Mickey.
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